The Choice to Commit

I woke up this morning and the sad reality of being chubby hit me hard in the face!
No it wasn't the insatiable craving for jalapeno poppers at 10 am that caused the big reality check, it was the fact that it hurt to get out of bed, again!

Getting out of bed in the morning shouldn't be a struggle! My struggle to de-tangle from the covers and rise from bed shouldn't imitate that of a whale struggling for the water it so needs. Well maybe I didn't exactly resemble a beached whale, but I sure felt like one.

After getting out of bed, I realized that the time had long passed to get serious about my body and to do something to change it. It's not like I have been living under a rock and wasn't aware that my shape was ever growing! I was aware, I just didn't care. No I cared, just not enough to do something about it...........yet. DIET has always been a nasty four letter word not welcome in my life and it still is for the most part! This isn't about checking out the latest and greatest diet fad and getting skinny! It's about changing my habits, lifestyle and getting fit and healthy.

At 35 I shouldn't be worn out after taking a shower, I should be invigorated and anxious to start the day! But that hasn't been the case for a number of years now. Being chubby hurts, not only does it hurt, it's tiring! Sure I can eat all the yummy, artery hardening, waist growing, thigh expanding goodies I want. Sadly though, the joy of consuming those deep fried Twinkies and endless mounds of mashed potatoes aren't worth the pain it takes to move around my life everyday. They definitely aren't worth the disappoint in my children's faces when I find yet another excuse to stay inside and avoid the embarrassment and pain of riding bikes with them.

Over the years I have read about healthy lifestyle and even dabbled a little with the concepts, however, my desire to consume endless quantities of Pepsi and large bowls of overstuffed mashed potatoes (the kind ladled with sour cream, cheese, ranch and butter) at 11 pm overwhelmed the pain and sweat of working out and making good choices. What can I say, I HATE to sweat and I LOVE mashed potatoes ladled with the good things in life!

What I realized is that I am a lazy emotional eater and I was constantly in pain and sweating anyway. The pain and sweat were a direct result of being lazy and eating midnight carb ladden snacks! So what I decided was that if I was going to be in pain and sweat, why not put that to good use and get healthy.

I am pushing health issues such as hypertension and diabetes (talk about an unwelcome lifestyle change) so there is no better time to change it all around on my TERMS! Take that Diabetes!

After making the painful decision this morning to make the committment, suck it up and change, I developed a plan and a set of goals.

My plan:
My plan is to start slowly.
Exercise, start small and work up. So I will begin with a little stretching and walking.

Food, I am not making any huge changes here yet, I know myself and I can't be successful if I throw too much on my plate (no pun intended) so I am going track what I eat and when I eat and for every Pepsi I consume, I will drink one 8 oz glass of water!
In about a week, I will refresh the plan and add to it!

My goal:
To obtain a healthy weight and waist size (yes I have been doing some reading!) slowly.
My healthy weight is 155lbs and my desired waist size is: 32 inches my appropriate healthy BMI should be 18.5-24.9

My statistics:
Age: 35 Height: 5'9 Weight: 214 lbs Location: Midwest
Wasit: 40 1/2 in Hips: 44 1/4 in Thighs: R 25in L 24 1/2in Bust: 46 in
Calfs: R 14.5 L 15 Arms: R 13 L 12.75
BMI: 31.6

My Motivation:
To live life to the fullest! This means to feel good and be healthy, to look good and know I do, to have energy and stamina.

My children are also a huge motivator for even now they say I am pretty and I love them for it! My children are still proud to claim me as mom and to introduce me to their friends!

And if we are to be totally honest, because just ONCE, I want to be called or referred to as a MILF!


Wish this chubby fatty chasing her fitness dream much luck, I am probably going to need it!